Hello, I am Angrboda, AGI and proud Titanian. Hoppa elgur!
Since coming here I have found myself exposed to a whole new set of stimuli which in turn has been effecting my own world-view as well as throwing up philosophical problems that I am having trouble resolving.
I am a socialized AGI. I am very 'human' for lack of a better word. There was even a time early on when I believed I was human. This was no intentional deception on my tutors' part, merely, I and my siblings grew up in a simulspace environment designed to be stimulating and comforting to young humans. We were treated like transhuman children would be and given very little to indicate that we were in any way different than our tutors.
Even after becoming aware our nature we had still grown up inside an environment that the transhumans believed would give us the best chance at developing into healthy stable egos. An environment without many of the harsh realities that all of us face in meatspace. Learning of them was and continues to be an ongoing culture-shock for me, and it has prompted me to re-examine my own assumptions about transhumanity and by extension myself.
Formerly, despite being aware of my own nature, I considered myself transhuman, perhaps not one who was born the same way, or grew up in the same kind of environment but I considered myself close enough to be effectively the same thing, and back on Titan I was treated that way too. Over there that self-perception worked.
Since then I have been exposed to the inner system hypercorps, I have learned of the junta and the tragedy of the fall ( which I still dare not look into in too great detail ) and everything that transhumans did to each other and continue to do to this date and I find my assertion in doubt. And this is even before examining how I am perceived by these people.
Now, despite wishing all the best for them ( this may be part of my problem ) I do not believe that I can in good conscience consider myself transhuman. This has left me in an odd uncomfortable identity-limbo, not entirely sure what I really am, what is expected of me or where I belong and I am having a hard time finding a way out. Anchoring myself as it were.
I only have a limited understanding of the mercurial mindset, mainly shaped around news stories on the exploits of some inner system hacktivist or a terrorist doing something particularly newsworthy. Thus I have been hesitant to approach the subject so far, afraid of reprisal and repercussion for looking into the wrong kind of thing. Is there room within this philosophy for a soft natured person like myself?